06-09-2025, 02:16 AM
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I am a single mum of 3 who struggles daily with BPD, I want to be able to provide my girls with everything they need but i barely get by. Often i feel a failure as a mum as providing things such as new clothing, shoes etc is impossible to afford with the cost of living these days. It is effecting my mental health as i feel like im not good enough to be a mum when i cant even provide them with basic things they need. We moved house 3 years ago and its financially ruined me. I struggle to get work due to medication i have to take for my BPD. I often struggle to leave my home due to anxiety and i am often alone, very few friends and i cant even handle having social media. Ive tried everything i feel is possible to get myself stable again but im finding im making myself feel even worse. I have no family around since my nana passed 2 years ago who was an amazing woman and she would help with the girls by providing new coats shoes etc. My earning money options are very limited due to the struggles i have with myself on a daily basis, I have no photo ID so im finding it difficult to find work online even. I just can not seem to catch a break, ive rolled out of control with debts, had baliffs threaten to take my belongings from my girls home for council tax debts, I have nothing of any value they can even take. My washing machine is broken now and i cant get one on finance and have no money to buy one. I feel like trhe only thing i live and breath for i cant even get right. All i am is a mum, my girls are all i have and i trely feel like all i do is let them down. I cry because i wish i was normal like all the other mums, already feel an outcast and i have very little love for myself but i love my girls more than anything and i can honestly say im here soley for them. I do not think i would be able to get myself up everyday if they wasnt here with me, i live to be a mum and im failing at that. I have support for my mental health but hide alot in fear of being judged or fear of loosing my girls for lacking to give them basic things. My girls didnt ask for a mum like me and they have sufford in the past due to my depressive episodes and they now have to go without things they need because i have no money. I am now desperate for help, I am here to ask if anyone can help me try and get on track again financially as i cant do it alone, i get paid uc then after bills food, everyday costs i have no money for the week before i next get a pay so im lending off the few friends i have and its just a circle i get my money to basicailly pay back money so im always begging friends. I worry they are sick of me now. Please any help would be really appreciated. I just want to be able to know that i can get by and not worry about where im going to get money from for my gas or even daily essentials such as milk and bread etc. Thankyou again in advance to anyone who can help, and thanks again for your time.
I am a single mum of 3 who struggles daily with BPD, I want to be able to provide my girls with everything they need but i barely get by. Often i feel a failure as a mum as providing things such as new clothing, shoes etc is impossible to afford with the cost of living these days. It is effecting my mental health as i feel like im not good enough to be a mum when i cant even provide them with basic things they need. We moved house 3 years ago and its financially ruined me. I struggle to get work due to medication i have to take for my BPD. I often struggle to leave my home due to anxiety and i am often alone, very few friends and i cant even handle having social media. Ive tried everything i feel is possible to get myself stable again but im finding im making myself feel even worse. I have no family around since my nana passed 2 years ago who was an amazing woman and she would help with the girls by providing new coats shoes etc. My earning money options are very limited due to the struggles i have with myself on a daily basis, I have no photo ID so im finding it difficult to find work online even. I just can not seem to catch a break, ive rolled out of control with debts, had baliffs threaten to take my belongings from my girls home for council tax debts, I have nothing of any value they can even take. My washing machine is broken now and i cant get one on finance and have no money to buy one. I feel like trhe only thing i live and breath for i cant even get right. All i am is a mum, my girls are all i have and i trely feel like all i do is let them down. I cry because i wish i was normal like all the other mums, already feel an outcast and i have very little love for myself but i love my girls more than anything and i can honestly say im here soley for them. I do not think i would be able to get myself up everyday if they wasnt here with me, i live to be a mum and im failing at that. I have support for my mental health but hide alot in fear of being judged or fear of loosing my girls for lacking to give them basic things. My girls didnt ask for a mum like me and they have sufford in the past due to my depressive episodes and they now have to go without things they need because i have no money. I am now desperate for help, I am here to ask if anyone can help me try and get on track again financially as i cant do it alone, i get paid uc then after bills food, everyday costs i have no money for the week before i next get a pay so im lending off the few friends i have and its just a circle i get my money to basicailly pay back money so im always begging friends. I worry they are sick of me now. Please any help would be really appreciated. I just want to be able to know that i can get by and not worry about where im going to get money from for my gas or even daily essentials such as milk and bread etc. Thankyou again in advance to anyone who can help, and thanks again for your time.