Help Me I Am A Doomer

i fucked it up please help (doomer needs help)

I recently had a shift in consciousness and it felt like i woke up from a dream or the so called „Matrix“. It made me feel extremely anxious. I never really thought about the implication of where the things I have done would leave me a few years into the future. I think part of it was a lot of negative programming from friends, family and society as well. I was led down a path from drinking regularly to smoking weed basically every day, all the time. Over time I started to isolate myself and basically lost connection to most of the people that were close to me. I guess it spiraled out of control when I lost my job a few years ago. Now I am sitting here an I have no clue why I did all that shit, which let to this total clusterfuck of my life.

A few moth ago I had this shift and so I started to read tons of books and articles to find out where all my problems came from. Digging deeper and deeper brought me to topics like social programming, the red pill movement, evolutionary Psychology, trauma and much more, which explains a lot of the traps I fell into and to why I fell into them, while totally unconscious.

Yeah so I fucked it up completely. I am trying to dig my way out of it, but it is kind of overwhelming right now. And I don’t know what to do. Or where to start. I am 9K in debt, i have no job and I don’t fell like I am in a position to get one from a mental point of view. I really don’t know what to do with my life.

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