This is an emergency. I have been trying to find a way out of this abusive cycle I'm in. 

The last 2 times I tried to leave I was hurt badly and cut off from everyone I know.
I deal with daily tactics by him to get me to react so that he has a reason to do something bad to me. If all else fails then he gets angry for ignoring and "disrespecting" him. Shelters are full. I have no family able to help. He turned everyone against me. I'm desperate. 
Because of covid, I have been struggling to find work, interviews are plenty but, offers are a different story. Anytime I get news I wasn't selected he'll say "see you're so stupid they didn't even want you". I have no car, any money I was bringing in before he would find ways to take, he even found the stash of money I hid away for savings and is convinced I STOLE it from him so he took it. Because of him, I lost my home, I have had to sleep on the streets many nights. A few he purposely left me behind with no money, no phone (because he broke the last 2 I had in fits of anger because I was talking to girlfriends about old friends and that meant I was interested in them and trying to cheat.) Then whenever he finds me says "see you can't do anything without me, you're worthless." He's left me for days without food, hides my inhaler from me and laughs if I get scared or worked up then tells me I'm going to die, will go out and buy new clothes and shoes while I only have one bra, no underwear, and my year-old flip flops are being held together by a literal string. He's thrown away most of my clothes, taken my money so I couldn't pay my storage so I lost everything, so now I only have 2 dresses, 3 shirts a sweater and 2 pants.
He's also begun using drugs and alcohol in dangerous combinations, one recent evening he was high on god knows what and forced me to remove any trace of him on my Facebook. Then the next day didn't remember anything and attacked me because i "wanted to appear single to get a new guy." I have a feeling he did it on purpose though. 
He says awful things about me and my race, disgusting things about my body, tells me I'm ugly and that he never liked me just wanted me for sex. He often will try to turn it around on me and say I'm abusing him especially if I've ever tried to defend myself. Then will threaten to have me put in jail if a scuffle leaves any marks on him and many times he's sent pictures to people claiming I am psychotic and abusive so everyone thinks I'm crazy and hates me, he even has a friend on call willing to beat me up so he won't have to if I ever do something out of line.  I've tried calling the police he runs. Won't let me go anywhere unless he's with me so I cant go get a protection order. He's told me recently if I ever try to go again I won't be around long enough to regret it.. I don't want to find out what that means.
 
Now, anytime I try to put together an escape plan I'm so anxious and scared that I talk myself out of it. Not to mention I don't have the funds to ever fully getaway so I couldn't get very far without having to go back eventually. Right now I just need enough for a bus ticket back home and a week in a hotel so I can locate my mother then I should be ok. $1000 would help me with enough room for food a week or so in a hotel a prepaid phone and minutes and a bus ticket. 

I just want to be free again. I want to remember what it feels like to be happy and laugh and not fear the next time something bad is going to happen. I deserve peace and ill do anything I can to obtain it. 

thank you for reading.

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Hello everyone 

My name is Rose I’m 23F, and ever since I aged out of the foster system at 21, it’s been ultimately difficult to get back in my feet.

Unfortunately I wasn’t handed the best of cards in life, my mom is literally batshit crazy who held a pistol at my forehead at age 10, cause she was drugged out of her mind!! I never knew my dad he left when I was 2. 
I’ve spent most of my life in the system and ended up staying with a lady for a few years who didn’t teach me any life skill or prepare me for the real world.

The day the money ran out, she dumped me on the curb. 

For the past couple years , I’ve been couch surfing and going thru various jobs trying to make ends meet, at the end of the day I’m all I got. The coronavirus has really had an impact on my journey to achieving my goals like saving up for an apartment and going back to school and getting and car. I hope things will turn around in 2021. 

I’m asking humbly for anything because anything helps, whether it be money or advice. I don’t want to end up another statistic you know? Below listed are my links and tags for e-payments. A little goes a long way, thank you and god bless (:

cashapp: $sangel00 
PayPal : Ramey.jobs97@gmail 
Venmo : sangel00

 I am humbled to be asking for help,  I've never done anything like this in my life. If God wants me to have help, I believe someone with a wonderful heart will. I'm truly hurting for Christmas, but we can have Christmas on another day. I'm 63, not crying about my horrible life of murders in front of me, house burnt down, friends died from car accidents I was in. God has blessed me because I'm still here. My issue is I'm going blind and I can't afford eyesurgery, and the hospital wants the $2500.00 payment up front. I've only had .11 cents left out of my checks. I don't want to go blind. I'm sincerely scared! And if some kind hearted soul could help me, I would eventually get back on my feet and pay it forward. That I promise from the bottom of my heart. I have a PayPal me account.  If someone is willing to help,  I'd be so humbled and greatful.  GOD BLESS EVERYONE GOING THROUGH THIS HORRIBLE TIME. Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!   Sincerely,  Cathie Mortimer 
My email is cathiemortimer0557@gmail.com

Dear all,

I’m a trans person seeking for help.
I can't afford costly surgeries, as I'm being denied from jobs.

I came out in July 2018, I’ve started my hormonal replacement therapy in August, and by November of that year I was jobless. Sadly, these events were interconnected. This is a frequent attitude in my country.

Since then I haven’t been welcome anywhere except for short-term occasional jobs where people don’t need to compare information is my passport to my current self and my pronouns. But I just HAVE to be myself. Everybody has this right. I  am a diligent hardworking person, why deny me only based on a piece of paper?.. No one needs an employee like me, even despite I have all the necessary skills.

Now, I currently can’t replace my passport and other papers, as I need my birth certificate, which was lost by the authorities of my native town (presumably in a mess of 1990s, when USSR shuttered.) I will also need to renew my certificate that I have a right to change certain data in passport, like name and sex…  I had one, but here it is valid for a year, last one expired while I was waiting vainly for my birth certificate to arrive.

It costs about 100 USD, but for me it is a lot of money. Short-term jobs hardly pay for rent.
Another problem I face is operations. I was repeatedly told if I don’t have ‘female organs’ removed (sorry for my clumsy wording, I don’t know much  of English, as it’s not my native language), sooner or later they’ll give me cancer. I’ve been in a lot of pain recently, and I’m really afraid. I can’t afford operations, each costs about 1,000 USD, and I need two (‘up’ + ‘bottom’).

Please share my story or donate.

https://paypal.me/supportden

Thank you so much for even reading this ❤
I just want to be healthy, get a job, and enjoy equal rights with everybody else.

Den (he/him) 

Hi, I am a young single mother and I lost my job a couple months ago due to the covid pandemic.  My daughter and I have been staying in hotels for the past month and I have run out of money for room or food.  Please help me to at least get a hotel room for my daughter.  I wished that she would never had to experience what it was like to be cold and hungry and I just want to keep my daughter safe and warm.  I have never used one of these sites before but I don't know what else to do.  Please help me get my baby out of the cold. My PayPal me link is http://PayPal.me/tiffanymarie141

Hello. I am a single mom fighting for my son. Not going to burden you with my sob story. I am just trying to raise what i need in order to help my son get over an ordeal that he should not have to face at his age. He is 5 years old and fighting. This is kind of a last resort for me, I am at wits end. The amount i need to achieve is so high that I am afraid to mention it. Anything will be greatly appreciated. Thank you in advance.

https://www.paypal.com/donate?hosted_but...Y7PBTEJLEA

Hi, I am 21 years old and recently I lost my job due to the company not wanting to renew the lease with the building owner, despite my attempts to find another job I haven’t found one. I currently have about $9,000 in loan debts. I live with my parents and would like to move out on my own, but unfortunately I can’t do that with so much loan debt. Even when I had a job it seemed like I couldn’t get the loans paid down. I’m in a really deep hole that I can’t seem to get out of. Anything would help. At this point I’m desperate. 

https://www.paypal.me/Afoster5533699

Hi Everyone

I am currently trying to save for a deposit on a house. I work full time but due to the pandemic the government has put the asking price up by 5%

Any donations weather big or small would be greatly appreciated 
https://www.paypal.me/hannah159987
Thank you so much in advance

I am a 44 year old single woman and happy for the first time in my life. I have flaws I’m working on everyday. Some minor and some that are bigger. I love myself today and I’ve never been able to say that before. To myself or anyone else! 
I have gone through depression, addiction, still working on learning to be loved but I am stable and happy. 
I am a paralegal and I want to finish my degree and fufill my dream of being an attorney. Unfortunately in the past I have acrued debt at some schools and have my transcripts now being held by those schools. I wish I made enough to be able to pay for them and am working very hard to do so but not there yet. The total I owe is about $3000 but anything would help. I am a very very determined woman and this will happen. I am so grateful for you reading my post and considering me for your kindness.

My PayPal is https://www.paypal.me/melissabeightman1

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Dear people of the world,
I'm in deep trouble.

This is not a unique story. This is a perfect manual of how to pave a road to your personal Hell with good intentions.
I never knew I’ll end up like this.

It all started when I’ve quitted my job and my ex-employers stopped wages for half a year. I got a new good job in 3 months, but since I really counted on that money, I had to get a credit card to havesomething live on. I never needed posh, I‘ve never been rich or something. Just wanted to lead a normal life.
By the time my ex-employer finally paid me everything he owed, a) I had to repay credit interest; b) inflation ‘absorbed’ half of the money value. This was 2017, and this was the beginning of mynightmare.

Things started to happen one after another.

I’m a kind of person who is obsessed with mending things, with helping people out even not possessing the resources for it. So stupid.
I  took loans to help my family, as my brother was deeply in trouble with the law (it was a wrongful accusation, but we still had to pay for the lawyer... Later on he seriously set me up, keeping borrowingmoney for me to pay odd his own debts... And never giving them back. I can’t be mad at him as it was me being a ‘yes man’ all the time... But it’s family, you know.)

I also took loans to support my friends. This is too long a story. I wish someone was there to tell me YOU CAN"T SAVE EVERYONE.
PUT YOUR OXYGEN MASK ON FIRST, BEFORE ASSISTING OTHERS.
I've learned it a hard way. And it was too late.

My friends couldn’t help me out, I knew that, and never bothered to share the situation.
Well. I do have a good job now. It pays off about 800 euro/980 USD (which is tolerable for Russia). I work on weekends, too. But trying to handle a rent, food, and all the debts leads to the inescapablesituation: I have debts for housing and public utility services, I have debts in loan services, and 3 fully cashed-out credit cards... Every month I am able to repay only percents. That’s because the percent rate of loan services is 1% a day, which makes it 365% a year... I know it is ridiculously high, but I didn’t have a choice back when I loaned them. Or I thought I didn’t.

I want to complete further education courses to boost my salary. I want to help people without ripping my heart out.
I wish I could get a normal life, where I can afford buying a new pair of jeans without cutting myself on food.
I want to have a family, too. But that’s impossible without sorting this all out.
I want to continue helping other people but now wisely, not blindly generous.
I want to get my teeth fixed, I’m just 32 and lack 8 of them already...

I need a fresh start...
Oh God.
I am talking huge numbers here. My debt is about 5,000 euro/6,000 USD. This is what I owe to banks and loan organisations…

I know no one owes me anything. I don’t fancy that my story will make 5,000 complete strangers feel sorry about me and pay a euro. Nothing like that.
I just...

I’m so tired. I’m so desperate that I’ve started looking at things like lotteries and stuff. Of course I wouldn’t spend money on tickets, as I do understand the odds... But the hope has clearly abandoned me

leaving place to some insane hysterical feeling.
It’s not that I wait for some kind of X-Mas miracle (oh yes I do, in fact... This is the only thing that can improve the situation so far... A miracle, huh.)

God, I’m desperate...
Can this miracle happen?
Can it?
I‘ve run out of options...
Sorry for begging for help.
I never thought it would happen to me... Well, no one 100% secured.

Bless you. Thank you for reading. And please don’t repeat my mistakes. Turns out you can’t  help others if you can’t help yourself.

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